At times you have to give up.

Love or Art, it's just the very same thing.

The comparison with love will make it easier for you to get what I mean, maybe. Let's think of a person who terribly attracts you. You think of him/her, obsess over him/her, idealize things, daydream about what to say, how to approach him/her...

The same happens to me about fandoms. When a fandom inspires me, I get to live in my very own world. When I happen to stumble upon a story that meets my taste, even if it's just an arc of a whole longer story, there's no way out. I keep on daydreaming about things, and making hypothesis, and textwalling around, and obsessively doodling, drawing, painting, sketching, inking, coloring, making comics about it, often revolving around a certain specific concept I desperately want to express-and I never am satisfied with how I express it.

But, just like love... sometimes it can't be forever. Especially because it's a fandom, not something that comes out of me; it's something I stumbled upon. And it's something that has a beginning and an end, and there's not an infinite number of things I can squeeze out of it. Inspiration gets drained, sooner or later.

And, just like love, you can't easily accept that, well, it's over. You re-read that material that inspired you so much, and by doing so you might get back your inspiration, and this just means you needed a bit more fuel, but ideas were still there;

...or thou might not.

If you don't, you'll remain alone with this shred of an idea... a lingering feeling that's just a small speck of the inspiration you used to get. And it leaves you with the shadow of those intense feelings,

and a white canvas.

It's not enough to make your hand trace what you feel.

It's OVER.

And it's kind of hard to accept, especially if you had started some project: you are left with this feeling of dissatisfaction, and a work that's half-done. "Should I complete it? Should I do it all over? Should I give up altogether?"

I have this kind of feelings about three projects I started and never ended: Beyblade B Side, Twilight or Dawn (Golden Sun 2 The Lost Age), Firmamento(KHR=>CozaGio+EnmaTsuna). What you saw on the internet was just the tip of an iceberg; I actually have lots and lots of sketched pages about those projects. Firmamento is actually the most incomplete one: lots of pages sketched in different styles and different times, and never completed.

In the end, I always, reluctantly, gave up, to give room to something new, something inspiring.

Maybe this time I should put all of those past feelings into something "mine", so that they won't get wasted.

Man, feels like dealing with ex-lovers all over. XD

Starting today, I'll try to abandon Giotto and Cozart, even though it's goddamn hard not to doodle them anymore... but inspiration has run dry. Expect sketches and illustrations about my new work, Encaged Heavens, though. Also, I'd like to have feedback, I don't care if it's positive or negative, and some collaboration, even in terms of suggestions for the story. It would be very appreciated. Thank you!